cheers to three years! 7-24-13

i was supposed to post this last week :( so sad i forgot!!!



six years ago it was love at first sight.

four years ago i said yes.

three years ago we said i do.

18 months ago we met our sweet daughter.....

three years ago, i married boss man. and it was the best decision we've made together. well, i guess he made the decision to propose and i made the decision to say yes :)

we've been through it all. college, job loss, job changes, buying our nest, a dog, the birth of our daughter, infertility and IVF treatments, we've weathered the storms of questioning us and our reasons, is it worth it, can we make it...and we have always come out the other side stronger and more aware of each other than we have ever been.

i wouldn't be me without him. i wouldn't know myself as well as i do. i wouldn't be held accountable for my bs without him. and him without me. we are complete together and as a family. we are a team in all ways. and we still have struggles. but we work through them together. sometimes it isn't pretty. sometimes it's beautiful.

its our life and i wouldn't trade it for anything.

so hunny, here's to 3 years of being your wife. i've loved it all. i can't wait for our little bundle of joy to be here next year, to watch our family grow and witness you with another child of ours.

i love you.

playing catch-up

lately i have been so disconnected from life! morning sickness is seriously debilitating...even just a slight nausea is horrible. thank the heavens i don't have it nearly as bad this time around. maybe a boy?! i have been so so so so tired that hitting the keys the post has seemed like too much work.

everything is too much work.

my house is a mess.

my laundry is piled in the floor next to the hamper. because it's too full.

my bed is unmade every day. which boss man doesn't like.

my dishes are piled in the sink.

you get my drift. everything is getting done at snail speed or just simply not done at all. oh well. once this baby arrives my nap will be nonexistent so i am taking advantage. a few months of naps can't hurt that bad.



m has started the montessori summer program and she loves it. her teachers are fabulous and we couldn't be happier. the summer is a lot of days so we don't really love that part but once she starts in the Fall it will only be two mornings a week for 3 hours. perfect! mama can get errands done, the nursery going and her big girl room. im looking forward to the couple hours of time alone. it will allow for more play time with her :)


boss man and i celebrated our 3 year anniversary last week. we went to an awesome dinner at my most favorite place and of course, i was sick in the bathroom and couldn't hardly eat my dinner. i was devstated. i told boss that once i feel better we have to go back so i can eat all my food!!! after dinner we went to Tim McGraw at the biggest little fair, California Mid-State Fair. we really are lucky that it's only a few minutes from us. great artists come every year and having a corn dog....or two...ok maybe 4, is the best part. and a cinnamon roll. mmmmmmmm. i also went for a girls night to John Mayer and then we did family night for Van Halen. let's just say Tim was the best. and he is really easy to look at. like rrreeeeaaaallllyyyyy.


we've spent a few days at the water park. which we are also so lucky to have near by!! m has a blast every time. she is so brave going down the slides!!!

m's great grandpa had a birthday too. we went down for pizza and cake to celebrate. we don't see them often enough so it was a great visit.

tahoe

for the last 18 summers, my family has spent the 4th of july week in Lake Tahoe. we rent this amazing condo right on the water and are nothing but lazy. it's amazing. as soon as new years is over, i immediately begin the countdown to Tahoe. hiking, biking, 4th parade, boating, napping, drinking, eating and lots more eating.

m spent her first summer vacation in Tahoe at 6 months old so she didn't really have too much fun. this year she was in heaven. she would dig in the sand for hours. play in the lake. swim in the pool. she took fabulous naps and slept great at night. she truly is such a happy little tyke.

we went a few days earlier and came home a few days earlier because boss had to work. it was still a week long vaca and that is enough for this mama. the first two days we stayed at a new place in Kings Beach. it was awesome. the water was shallow and warm, there was paddle boats, paddle boards, sand toys, fire pits and a lake trampoline all for us to use for free. and the beach was private which meant no crowds.

and surprise!! m is going to be a big sister!!!

my baby daddy

my husband. my baby daddy. he is just the best thing there is. i never knew i could feel so at peace, so much joy when seeing him with our sweet girl. he is:

talented-at-all-things
passionate
funny. so very funny
compassionate
caring
a hunk (this should be at the top of the list...)
a friend
a brother
a son
a daddy
a husband
a lover of golf
a lover of fishing
provider
protector

i could keep listing and listing all of the things that made me fall in love with him over and over again but it would probably make you gag. i say this all the time, in every card i write him, but i am truly so so so lucky to have him as ours. he is the best father. i thought i could imagine it, seeing him with her, but i couldn't even get close. when i hear the giggles and laughs, my heart melts to mush. he wears so many hats every single day and does an excellent job at all of them. he is our boss.

so heres to you baby daddy, happy fathers day!!!! i love you. we love you. all 3 of us ;)

18 months!

M is 18 months old. how on earth did this happen? they say the older you get, the faster time flies. and this is true. but what no one told me was once you have a baby, then time REALLY flies. like in the blink of an eye a week has gone by. or a month. i really cannot believe she is 18 months....my sweet baby.

at 18 months old, M:

• can hop on two feet. i've counted up to 11 times in a row
• loves to be a big helper. unloading one grocery item at a time, one dish out of the clean dishwasher at a time, one piece of clothing out of the dryer....anything she can help with, you bet she will be right there to do it
• she has so many words! she just started saying mama about a month ago and i LOVE it. pretty, milk, walk, out, shoe, hi dada, hi roo, hi mama, hi gigi, hi pop and 100 other words and phrases that all sounds like japanese/spanish/german. her vocabulary is growing everyday
• wants to have her boo-boo's kissed all better. 17 times
• gets grumpy as soon as she hears dinner begin to cook. she will continue to be a grumpers until she is in her highchair with food in her mouth. every night without fail. 
• could eat all. day. long. seriously
• loves to help wash herself in the bath. and loves the bath
• loves her friends we have made at mommy and me. i like the mommy friends i have made too :)
• waves hello to anyone and everyone in every store
• absolutely loves being dirty. she could spend all day outside digging in the dirt and playing in roo's water bowl

this list could go on and on. we love you sweet Mila, you are the light of our life, our dream come true!!

and now we wait: part 2

embryo transfer was a success! i have two embryos in my belly, floating around looking for a comfy spot. hopefully they've found exactly the best spot because it's going to be a long 9 months!

and now we wait until next wednesday for the pregnancy test. this is going to be the longest wait of my life. i am not a waiter. i take a pregnancy test every day for two weeks. that is just me. good thing i married a patient man who waits.

and now we wait: part 1

yesterday could have been the longest day of my life. a 12 hour trip. left at 8 am, got home at 8 pm. and all of it but about 3 hours was driving. ew. how do you live in LA? that is the question. 45 minutes to go through 3 green lights. really. awful. boss man handled it wonderfully while i was yelling at him, ok, not yelling, but loudly suggesting, he move over, then move back, drive slower, no drive faster, stoppppp!!!!!! that is how most of the drive to Beverly Hills went. home was much better.

we arrived at the ART center to have my eggs retrieved and i immediately was in tears. what if i ovulated early? what if i don't wake up? these feelings are probably normal but i am a worrier. boss calls me wcs-worst case scenario. and thats all i did the entire way there. from the moment i woke up. wcs. sorry lover :( well i woke up and the procedure went great. i even got some lovely pain meds that knocked me right out for a quick nap!

7 eggs were retrieved and doc called me this morning to inform me that 6 were healthy and 4, maybe 5, were healthy growing embryos!!! i have 6 children. ha. that is so wild. i have one amazing little girl at home (napping thank god) and 5 little embryo babies growing in Beverly Hills. ahhh life is good. let's just hope they don't get used to that lifestyle while they enjoy their 5 night stay in the posh ART center....

we head back down next Wednesday for the embryo transfer. he will pick the healthiest two embryos to transfer and then we get to come home! a week and half after that we will take a pregnancy test and pray to the gods, old and new (do you watch game of thrones?), that i am pregnant (with twins!) ssshhhh, don't tell boss that i am hoping for two :) he may faint. 

part 2 after Wednesday !